P O E T I K A

  Copyright (c) 2001 JC England



KAATTENMOUSEN

Kaat o' nine
Kaat o' mine
Whip them mousen
Make 'em whine

Kaatten ears are foldenbakken
       kontemplaten fun
Kaatten tail is flikkertwitchen
       Mousen better run!

Kaat o' nine
Kaat o' mine
Whip them mousen
Make `em whine

Activate your stikkenscratchers
       Klamp your fangenvisen
Show the other kaattenslinkers
       what to do with micen!



SENSATIONS OF ERIKA

Erika's hair is soft, like threads of gold and silk
To touch it is almost not to touch it at all
but to pass one's hand through the fine down
           of an angel's wing

Her mouth, a rosy whisper on new satin,
requires no sound to show a passing mood
But she speaks with the purest voices of the bells
and her singing throat trembles
           like the breast of a little bird

The most mysterious music of some unfathomable secret
           plays in her eyes
And from her hand held briefly against my chest
           flows the sudden warmth of a young girl's trust



THE RESTING PLACE

Bodiless voices ride the night
           and the laughter of the others

She is hidden, safety assured
In familiar burrow
           amid clutter of hermit's retreat
           and scents of sorrows
And memories falling unexpectedly
           like sudden shadows

She is ignored (most painful thing!)
           Unworthy of love? Unworthy of love?
As a prisoner exists in cold stone cell
           regretting it, she exists, on and on

She has learned
           that there are no saviors
           only destroyers
Demolishers to the ground
           who in furious pain
           destroy them both

There remains the depth within her
           of the stillness
That which will not again be offered
           not to be scorned for what she is

And there remains the resting place
           the warming current in head, in chest
The peace that saves her
           from her other selves
           and from them



OH JABBER

Oh Jabber, oh Jabber, oh Jabber my love
       you came with the season, you came from above
I long for the velvety touch of your glove
       oh Jabber, oh Jabber, oh Jabber my love

Oh Jabber, oh Jabber, oh Jabber my sweet
       my calls you ignore and my mail you delete
How long must I suffer the pain of defeat
       oh Jabber, oh Jabber, oh Jabber my sweet?

Oh Jabber, oh Jabber, oh Jabber my dear
       I'll ply you with brandy, I'll ply you with beer
But nothing will come of my efforts, I fear
       oh Jabber, oh Jabber, oh Jabber my dear

Oh Jabber, oh Jabber, oh Jabber, for shame!
       I try to survey you and stake out a claim
You play with my heart like a frivolous game
       oh Jabber, oh Jabber, oh Jabber, for shame!



NATALIA KALININA

Natalia Kalinina of the eastern regions
       wings inlaid with silver, bronze, and gold
Soars boldly about dual perches
       having learned flight from the swallows

Natalia Kalinina, herself a brush
       paints disappearing figures in the air
Tumbles over the blue mat surface
       a skipping stone across smooth water

Natalia Kalinina, tree top dancer
       now becomes an elegant branch of birch
Plants a dismount rooted and true
       Slender sapling, supple and strong

Natalia Kalinina of the clan of cheetahs
       sprints and springs in a flashing high arc
Alights upright as cats are known to do,
       her prey, elusive beauty, in her teeth



HOMOGEN

I am one
   like the others
We are many
  id atrophied
  Uniform

As one
  we merge
It emerges
  a creature
  Homogen

We dance
  it dances
We love
  it loves
We work
  it works
We part

  It dies



TO A FRIEND

If ever circumstance conspires
       with tears to line your gentle cheek
And if your aspirations sink
       beneath a cold, uncaring sea

Don't hesitate to call on someone close
       to help your spirit mend
But try to make it someone else
       I'm really not that good a friend



WHEN THE STORM SPOKE

When the storm spoke
her tongue was a stroke of yellow fire
       that uttered daylight in the darkness
It licked the earth, and for an instant,
bared the charcoal ceiling of the clouds,
       the seething surface of a dark, inverted ocean

Here is my crashing sky! she blazed

The rain spread out across it
like a rustling silken gown,
       enticing me to witness her display

Here is my dripping tree, she sang,
And here my pummeled, bobbing sea of grass!

And she applauded them
       against my window panes



LETTER FROM A SHATTERED MAN

He wrote a letter for her
Sick that he was
Sick and hopeless and afraid
Feeling the rush of blackness to his heart

How he longed for a life as good
as the peace that would free him from the living
What would he not have traded
for respite from pain?

But he dreamed of disappearing
to end all dreams and all problems
To bring a fair and honorable close to what had become
an insane and insufferable dilemma

Every corner filled with whispers that he do it
He heard it in the coldness of his heart
turned his head and feigned ignorance
until the sounds were faded away into nothingness

He offered an apology
to those who could no longer hear him

Oh, I am sorry
The words don't even apologize for themselves
I have done these things
Nothing can erase them from our memories

The grayness of it's pressed against my chest
The dull pain of it permeates my blood
This breathing done in vain won't hinder death
I've run the maze, I know it inch by inch
And this I've learned: there is no other exit

And his kind metal friend
laid him to sleep
scattered his aching brain
spilled him

The room he occupied is empty
The windows are unseeing, vacant eyes
The walls shut out the outside life
and at night keep his soul from escaping



DRUGSTORE SORCERY

With fervor sought the alchemists of old
       to transmute heavy lead to pretty gold
and thereby mimic nature's magic art
       of drawing golden love from leaden heart

Now modern drugstore sorceresses vie
       to have more fun, and so their tresses dye
And men are drawn to doom in witches' beds
       attracted by the fool's gold on their heads



EVELYN

Hair of amber, dress of green
Evelyn was seventeen
Eyes of kindness, heart of smiles
left me feeling like a child

How she charmed me, pretty darling
how she flew, like wren or starling
Out of silence, like a song
now she's here and now she's gone

Though constellations in the night
display her face in stellar light,
Though I remember all she said
my heart could never turn her head

Then peace to her, May time erase
the signs of sorrow from her face
And may she find the happiness
that she deserves, and nothing less



THE DARK FOG

To exist in the land of the dark fog
       is to know nothing but one's own close surroundings
Even they are tinged with it
       and nothing exists beyond it
The shadows are darkened by it
       light is subdued by it
Mystery and evil are suggested by it
       a cold and hopeless despair emanates from it

She thinks.
       There is no one else but me
       and I am unsure of myself
       What is `myself'?
The dark fog seeps into her

There are so many words in her rooms
The open faces of books and papers show her their words
       but they are the words of the others
       and are therefore unattainable by her
She can only construe them by imperfect understanding
       into what they are not
They can only reveal to her the shadow of what they mean
       eternal puzzlement, no more

And the old relics
       reminders of what she once pretended to be
Sit obsolete and vaguely humorous now
And fully encompassed by the dark fog



THE GHOST CAT

There is a little cat
who runs through the room
       just at the corner of my vision
It may be a devil
       or it may be a fairy,
For, when I turn my head
       it's always gone



SEA LEVEL

A liquid sheet of froth
       is sliding silently away
A thousand moons are riding
       on the luminescent waves

The ocean sweeps a seashell in
       then out, as if to say
how easily it welcomes back
       the things it throws away

The solitary satin moon
       that swims above the sea
enchants the light that reaches you,
       the light that reaches me

And if you stood beside me now
       and if I took your hand
the little waves would trip our feet
       and draw us to the sand



AFTER THE SHOW

All of the people
   filter out slowly
       after the show

All of the echoes
   settle to silence
       after the show

One is engulfed
   in billowing stillness
Waiting suspended
Feeling a hopeless,
   furious sorrow

There is no mercy
   found in the silence
       after the show



TOUCHING LYDIA

Lay down your head upon my breast
       Let me enfold you, love in love
The peace of arm and arm entwined
       The touch of you, the loving touch

The once averted eyes now bold
       The rushing pulse, the blush of bliss
The brushed-by kiss on tender cheek
       The sudden rain of lips on lips

The beauty of your breast unbound
       cupped soft in hand, kissed lovingly
Like supple buds of roses
       oh, press close your sweet bouquet to me

The urgency of wanting you
       The merging thrust, the willing yield
The softness and the hardness one
       The surging gift of love revealed

Lay down your head upon my breast
       Let me enfold you, love in love
The peace of arm and arm entwined
       The touch of you, the loving touch



A LETTER

A letter makes a pretty flame
       to signify affection's end
A letter gone to ash and smoke
       can never be restored again

She gathers up her memories
       embraces them a final time
Her heart is like a broken cup
       Her love is flowing out like wine

She hears the faintly beating drum
       of life-It beats for everyone
she ever knew-It stops for some
       Now no one waits, she burdens none

In resolution past regret
       she draws a melancholy breath
And shuts her eyes and takes a step
       and falls into the arms of death



IN MY DREAM

In my dream the stars came back
and the moon was silver across the sky
The great sun solved the deep mystery of night
and the spell was broken

Children ran happy into the day
and the twister of souls relented
Lovers were released into the pleasure of their love
and death was far away, and humble



SEVENTH STREET

Walls of stone stand straight
Crumbling pavement waits
Street lamp halo light
is holding back the night

Neon flash is brief
In stuttering relief
the ghostly color sheds
a message rarely read

Angry voices rise
Words are flung like knives
A lover's cruel deceit
escapes into the street

Refuse whirls about
A window light goes out
As down the street of red
the whores have gone to bed



THE MOMENT

Through the night window
a sea of lights floats in the darkness
All in a moment
beneath the soft cover of music
She remembers
that time is endless
that love is with us
That the night extends forever



JEALOUSY

I give you love
       you share it with him
I give you sorrow
       you pass it to him
I confess my secrets
       they are subject to his review

I cannot sleep or work
This pain has caught me in its teeth
Consumes me endlessly
       but will not let me die

You are inside me
I am incapable of wanting you to go

There is no answer



THE WOOD

She was in a wood. There were only the trees, very straight and regular, and the  sloping carpet of fallen leaves. Although the trunks stood well apart, she was  sheltered beneath the high canopy of treetops. Once past the first bend, the  edge of the wood could no longer be seen, the sky could no longer be seen.  Illumination filtered down from above, vision was clear, but she was no longer  certain from which direction she came, or whether that direction still existed.

She sat down on the early autumn leaves. She felt nothing, she had no thoughts.  She had only visual awareness and a sense that there should have been more. Her  limbs were light as paper. There was no longer any rule by which she could  determine whether there had ever been any other place but this. She felt, in a  way that never quite became conscious, a dread that there might still be.

She looked at the trees, so incapable of discontent. With what was left inside  her, she began to despise and envy them, but her passion never became complete.  It merely disappeared into the well within. Then, in her disappointment, she  almost forgot to think at all, but wished only that she might never have come to  the wood, where she was so completely lost, and from which there was no  possibility of escape, as the first tiny rootlets spreading out from her toes  crept beneath the leaves and began to plant themselves in the dark, moist soil.



THE ABANDONMENT

The father swam away, with sure strokes, across the choppy, gray surface of the  water. He never looked back, and in a short time he was gone. Their boat sank  swiftly. A few feet away, the mother struggled to stay afloat, and her little  girl clung to a half inflated plastic float. The girl noticed that her sister  and brother were nowhere in sight and wondered innocently where they might be.  She believed that someone would come soon and save them.

The mother's face was distorted with grief and terror as she flailed at the  water. Her strength drained quickly, and she floated, exhausted, until her face  dipped beneath the surface, then she sprang up again in a frenzy. She began to  curse her husband, but the useless anger soon gave way to hopeless weeping.

In time the mother's expression grew softer, and she began to speak as though to  someone close by. The girl could see no one, but the sound of her voice was very  sweet and beautiful. In the middle of a sentence, the mother gasped, drowned  quickly, and lay very still in the water before floating slowly away.

The girl said nothing and did nothing. After she had drifted for many hours, she  suddenly felt her feet touch bottom. She raised her head and saw that the shore  was quite near. It looked very strange. She stood weakly and waded to it with  great effort, falling only once.

When she reached the shore she climbed a small bank and sat down facing the  water. She drew her knees up to her forehead and began to cry without making a  sound. The tears fell on her bare legs and feet.

"I have abandoned you," she said.